Monday, April 20, 2009

The Entry that Started it all; from my other blog

As any regular reader would have noticed this blog has been very sporadically updated and it's about to change. Not completely, it will still be mainly based on film and the music that influence my life, but I had what many people would call a mental break recently and was finally hospitalized and officially diagnosed as having bi-polar disorder. I had felt that I had the disorder for a while and have been seeing a psychiatrist but because the vast majority of my symptoms were depressive rather than manic it has been hard to get a sure diagnosis. This time I was able to go to the hospital while manic and was still diagnosed as having a major depressive diagnoss whle simulataneously being treated with mood stabilizers consistent with the treatment of bi-polar disorder (formerly known as manic-depression.) My personal psychaitrist is has now officially diagnosed me as bi-polar but only after this last episode. It's hard to disagnose until symptoms arrive and for me the symptoms of the mania, the non depressive side of bi-polar just weren't showing themselves. But I'm on the right medication now and I feel better than I ever have, so I think that things worked out as best they could.
This blog will remain as it has been only hopefully updated much more frequently. If my personal issues begin to take center stage I'll start another blog to tackle them by themselves. I honestly don't know if that will happen or not. We'll see.
In the meantime please watch Prozac Nation starring one of my favorite actresses Christina Ricci in the most accurate display of bi-polar disorder I've ever seen on film. It was directed by the guy who directed the original Swedish (I think) version of Insomnia.


My other blog is a film criticism sife you're interested it is locataed here Exile in Myville

Saturday, April 18, 2009

First I'd like to thank

I'd like to thank the readers who have given this blog a chance. Whether it be from Exile in Myville (my movie and music site) or anywhere else. It's not likely to be uplifting in fact it more than likely will be quite depressing, but that's not the point. The point is that medication and therapy are real things in the real world and I would like to show some of you that it's not all that uncommon for people to have personality disorders such as my Bi-Polar disorder,(what was once called manic-depressive disorder) it is however, uncommon to be diagnosed or to receive treatment. So if you're feeling off- sleep all day or not at all, or have any other symptoms related to depression or mania I ask that you make a doctors appointment ASAP and try to first rule out everything they can with blood work. The other avenue is to go straight to a psychiatrist, you should be able to get a list of available psychiatrists from your insurance plan but if not the Yellow Pages are there for a reason so please, if you think you need help then please get it. If it wasn't for my diagnosis and treatment I would not be currently functioning in society. I had my first panic attack since leaving the hospital 6 weeks ago today and I will blog more about that as I come down a little bit from it.